Willpower

Today I'm would like to touch up on this beautiful aspect of the human mind willpower.

The human willpower is the strongest weapon of the human mind. A strong willpower will lead to you to a stronger action. It is always the body over the mind but actually it's the mind that is stronger than the body. We tend to succumb to the body and that's what lead us to having a weak willpower and would less likely achieve.

So why I am talking about about willpower so suddenly? 

Actually it's about me and my determination to succeed well in my studies and to have a good life in the future. Right now my determination level is low because of the things and thoughts I have to experience everyday. I don't want to explain further than that. 

What I wanna do now to do what every typical student does best. Which is to say to say that they will do well in their studies. For me, on the other hand I wanna to do something about my life. I want to do change the way people think and act towards the poor...

Such a bold statement but yeah that's what I wanna do through my movement.

I can do this.

"Mondane"

So today I was stuck in the jam for nearly 2 hours.What a great way to start my Monday.

Hmm at least on the positive note I was almost able to complete my science worksheet without the help my groupmates. Thats a good sign that means I am making progression towards my studies..

However though I still got my science practice questions wrong. Haizzzz I was so confident that my answer was right.. then again I am slowly gaining my confidence back. That is another good sign.

I know its impossible to change the class perception about me so I just have to wait until the next semester and not repeat the same mistakes that I did in semester 1. Bear with it,  it is almost every little bit about yourself to be the first to review this booking system and get the

New class, new classmates,  new school life. I really need a resurgence of my school life now and i need it badly.

I should stop consuming all the negativity about myself. Think positive riz. 

Breathing Sunday.

Like finally its the last day of my work. I got more room to breathe now. Its the most difficult decision I had to do but for my future I had to do it. So since I left my IG. There's only me and school left.

Been telling myself for months that I have to do well. Need to do well. It's a must. I wanna have a comfortable life in the future. I have a successful friends and they're the ones trying to push me to be like them. They believe in me, they themselves knew that there is potential in me to be able to achieve big things in my life.

I want to believe in that. I do. I just have to plan what I want to achieve in my life. I've been saying that a lot of times but I couldn't solidify my words into actions. It really sucks..

For now my only focus is on my next exam, I'm dead worried about my gpa...I just have to do well.
It's not a choice, it's a must to do well.

I believe one day I could change. I should just stop contradicting myself...and until I do that, I guess I will be able to move out from the current situation I'm having now.

For starters,

I need to start to accept my weaknesses and work on it.

Sat ur ayyyyyyy

Hey!!

Guess what I downloaded the official Blogger app on my android. So I can just blog things on my phone without any complications hehe.

So my Saturday was fine. I kinda watch this inspirational speech by Rocky Bolboa towards his son. Indeed I find it inspiring. He's right. It's not about how hard you can hit,  its about how much you can get hit and yet keep moving hard. It's about how much you can take and keep moving forward.  That's life..

Looking back.. I realized I can do keep moving forward no matter how many times I got hit by others. It's whether I want to or do not want to.

Life's tough but I have to accept it. My friend had it tougher but she is thriving in it. It just show the lack of willpower I have currently. I have to do something about it.

Today I got to know my new colleague well. Told her that she has to do well in ITE to make it to poly and couple of others things and tomorrow is my last day of work. Thank fish its friday.

Still doing some self reflecting on myself...

"What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger.

Kelly Clarkson

To be honest my mind is quite blank. Gotta find my purpose in life and work towards it.

T.G.I.F

Hi there,

Sorry for the late post, had too much fun last night.

Yesterday post

Thank Gosh Its FRIDAYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!

Yesterday I set some things to accomplish for friday, sadly however I managed to cover two of it which was getting more involved in my module presentation and smile more. I totally forgotten about the rest. What the fish Hariz. I shouldn't have done that.

I had iftar with my soon to be former colleagues. This Sunday would be my last day working with them before I go hardcore mode with my studies. When i meant hardcore it means hardcore. I would reduce the time on Facebook and Twitter. Maybe a bit on Instagram... (I love seeing moments) Back to my former colleagues, seriously I'm gonna miss all of them. The laughter, the pranks, etc etc. They were the ones who could made my stress go away for the time being. They're like my third family to me. The first being my family and the second being my close friends.

On a serious note however,

I just got my favorite module (organisational behavior) understanding test 1 results. I'm shocked with it. I did that badly??? I'm supposed to ace that module. Well the reality hits me. So i'm not gonna expect anything in my UT1 results... Just have to really channel focus on my UT2 now. So again I have downgrade my expectations. Maybe a 2.80 to a 3.00 out of 4.00 for my first GPA results... Saddening like really... I need to solidify the words I said months before... Fish lar why I'm doing this again.

My ED module facilitator confronted me today. She ask what lead to my poor results. My respond was poor communication, her response was that I didn't put in any effort at all in my ED. I was taken aback when she said that. I participated in class, involved in my group discussion and did my quiz correctly. So what did she meant by not putting effort? She said that I never review what I have learn at the end of the day and that what lead to my poor results. She wants to see more effort in my studies. When i couldn't answer her, she knows she's right about this...Guess I am just being Self-serving Bias towards myself.(TAKE THAT OB!!!)

Hmm....
Will be experiencing a rough storm soon if I don't do something about it..Maybe I am but I am not putting in any effort to it....I guess I just need to find my source of motivation.

"Change your thoughts and you change your world."

Norman Vincent Peale


What is real change.... I have to find an answer to that.

Histo Thursday.

Hey,

Worst thing you can ever do is to write your blog using your HP.

Today was alright. The topic that we learnt today was Mean,Mode and Standard Deviation etc etc. Guess what? We need to use Histogram!!!! Another excel tool. Gosh knowledge in Office applications helps a lot these days. Sadly though i couldn't remember how to use it in meeting 1 otherwise i would have solved the problem statement with ease. It took me until meeting 2 that i could remember using it. Taught the class how to use it, somehow not many listened to me. Heck it...

I had a heart to heart talk with a course mate today. I know where he is trying to get me into but the thing is how do you expect me to communicate if the rest don't feel the need to? It's affecting me as much as it affects you. I'm trying my best. Really I am. There's already a wall bro. You can see it. That's why i distance myself away. Trust me when I say each time whenever I go into class, it's the most unhappy and saddest feeling I can ever get. To be labelled as a "burden" and a "Maggot" don't you think it's really upsetting? I myself won't ever say that to people I met. Somehow i just have to accept that criticism and move on. I know you have highlighted my flaws not once but twice I really have to thanked you for that. If you didn't I would not know where I have gone wrong and it would have gone worse. Again thanks for the talk... I really appreciate it...

I did some self-reflection while i was at work today. I guess maybe I should  stop thinking too much about it.  I should look at it like it was my first day at school. Take that criticism as a challenge and work my way through like i did it before in ITE... Yeah i think that's what i should do..

What i accomplished today...

• won the division title 10 in fifa 13. (Shut up i know)
• Studied and now understand how displacement and speed time graph works.
• Taught my class how to use Histogram.

What I intend to accomplished tomorrow

• Get myself involve in the module presentation tomorrow.
• Study Maths again.
• Smile more. (sounds creepy but well)
• Start drafting my letter to Rod.
• Call CMPB get my deferment done and over with.
•  If time permits start playing ukulele 

Would again like to leave with a quote,

"Put your heart, mind, and soul into even your smallest acts. This is the secret of success."


Swami Sivananda

All I have to do now is take small baby steps to accomplished my goals. Under god's willing I can do this,

Hariz

Let's start something simple for my first post.

Hey,

So yeah, Hariz welcome back to the world of blogging. My last post if i remember correctly was about Vietnam?? Woah that's pretty far back. I would like to close that chapter of my blog and start a fresh.

Anyways life has been good for me. Just that currently I'm experiencing a lot of stress while in Polytechnic. Yeah i remember telling myself i will do well while in Poly, get into mass com, start my own internet radio station and work on my movement.

So far, I'm struggling in two modules. Engineering Design and Maths. Maybe a bit of Science? Really I am shaking on my knees now. I don't even know how to contribute to my team Problem Based Learning for these two/three modules. They really hate me because of this. Who am i to blame them for being that way?

Just yesterday I couldn't even came up with a proper gear system for our crank torchbox. Felt really bad about it... Somehow I will try my best to help them next week. It's part of my exams marks.... I really don't want to be over reliant on my UT engineering design theory paper. Somehow I feel like I have no choice since I can't help much at all with my team.

As for Maths, well to put it simply I really need a lot of help. And when a lot means A LOT. I'm really afraid right now for my Maths and ED as well. Someone please help me in this.....

Today was my favorite module which was Organisational Behavior. Some sort of Human Resource Module. My friends found OB boring but to me it's kinda interesting... We learnt about decision making pitfalls and i swear that was one of the toughest lessons yet. I couldn't grasp an understand of it even though I managed to point out a bit of my understanding about today lesson.

I kinda feel sad though that i have to made a tough decision about my IG and my job. I have to sacrificed both of them just so that i'm able to catch up with my studies and that's what i been doing currently. Movement on the other hand, I just kinda hate it when people agreed to work with me in doing and making this movement a success but when it comes to meetings and not a single o showed up. It's quite sad and i really do not want to delay this movement any longer.

What i want to accomplish tomorrow..

 I would love to score an A for DG for maths again. It's about Mean, mode and median tomorrow should be alright. Guess i should talk more as well. I just could not clique with the class. I just don't know why. Will go to work as well tomorrow to cover kak peah at the cable car at 6. Spend again an hour on maths, I want to do really well for the next UT for no just maths but my other modules. This to pull up my fiasco of my UT1 grades since to be honest I didn't study for it.

I would like to leave a quote before I end this.

"If you accept the expectations of others, especially negative ones, then you never will change the outcome."

Michael Jordan

He's right. I'm just the type of guy who's trying to meet and accept the expectations. I should not do that it's not right. I just have to live with my own expectations. I have set for myself.

Take Care,
Harris

PS : I would love to go for Terawih but sadly i have no time. I would go on Friday... I set a goal that i'm expecting myself to complete. I know I can do it. Salam Ramadhan people.

Take Care 

Harris